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# night walker #

>> Friday 29 June 2007

jakarta, almost midnite
not now,
some days ago, waktu aku pulang malem
as usual, hehe but that iz fine, dont really like it, dont really think about it

and yang jelas... im hungry, ah, i got perfect word : starving.
tapi masih ada makanan kantin kok, jadi ntar nyampe tinggal maem

so i passed through the gate, security guards, yang hampir semuanya jadi kenal
(gara gara sering pulang malem) and walked along the street

masih ada ibu ibu di jembatan duduk melulu sambil terkantuk kantung,
i pressume she's a needy. jadi makan malemnya aku kasih dia hehehe
itung itung amal, yahhh sapa tau itu satu satunya makanan dia hari ini,
kan daripada ga ada, ( ga enak juga siy, tu kan dari tadi siang, tapi kasian...)


no big deal, shes happy, me too. :)))
well dia bilang tengkyuh kok ( jadi terharuu )
legaaaaaaaaa

turun jembatan, kok jalanan sepiiii banget, hik jadi sedih gitu,
ada makhluk lucu yang kurus dan terlihat menderita, kucing malang yang bikin aku pengen bawa pulang dan dikasih piara,,
tapi gak mungkin,
lagi mengais ngais makanan, tampak lapar, jadi ga tega,

mana tadi makanan udah dikasih ibu ibu di jembatan, jadinya bongkar tas deh,
kali kali ada coklat, ( kucing tida bole dikasih coklat ) atao kue,
dan hik.....

aku ga punya apa apa (@ @)
nyari warung buat beli ikan udah pada tutup,
gak tega, sedihhhh akhirnya aku pulang dan ga ngasih apa apa ke kucing tersayangku.

....anyway.. it just a little unimportant story about my way back home
kayanya nothin special,
tapi paling gak, aku jadi ngerasa bersyukur

aku bukan ibu ibu di jembatan yang harus ngantuk nungguin orang ngasih sesuatu,
aku bukan kucing malang yang harus dianiaya manusia manusia tak berhati yang menganggap kucing itu makhluk hina..

dan diantara perasaan yang nelangsa,... ( karena ga bisa nulung kucing)
masih ada rasa legaaaaaaa dikit,
karena aku ada kesempatan untuk bersyukur..

........................ ^_^

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# ingenue #

^_^ happy as an ingenue....

R u ..? R u ... ?
im the only one who cannot recognize her own reflection in the mirror

cape hari ini :) cape nangis heheheh
dalem ati dan di luar ati.
i dunno why.....just does.

tapi udah ga mau mikirin lagi.

let those sadness came, and they'll be dissapointed when they're knocking my door.

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.... crazy little things called..happiness...

>> Wednesday 27 June 2007

malam di bawah langit langit kusam
di bawah atap atap kering penuh lubang AC menggantikan lubang lubang tikus
yang tergeser ke sudut bangunan..

beberapa jari masih berjingkat jingkat di atas laptop
dan mata yang merayap ke sela sela monitor yang mati hidup mati hidup

dipaksa terjaga oleh lampu lampu yang berderet seperti bintang
bayangan manusia manusia yang lalulalang seperti pasir yang bergerak gerak ditimpa ombak

dan temen sebelahku lagi ngupil hehehehehe
(...merusak imajinasi yang pengen nulis barang barang indah...)
kekekekekek

i am happy today
n possessed by the ghost called smile and laugh..
never know what happened to me, perhaps juzz a lot exhausting or tired
but the truth is i luv my life

i may not get everything iwanted to
but i got more than what i ever wanted to
:)

and im so delighted for that.
you never have to force yourself for the nature you can never conquer
but i think i let myself flow and let the life love my life itself

heheheh binun kannn
ahhhh udah ah mau pulang

talkin to my friend:
hei ai' pulang yuk,, tuh idung udah kembang kempis ditiup laler
anak ingusan ini bener bener lagi ingusan sekarang

hahahahaha
good partners. but i luv him anyway

okay
the rain stopped
the scent keep dancin in my nose
seducing me to come home at once

..... gudh nite my second home..... hehehehe

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living my own dreams

>> Friday 22 June 2007

argh
ini pake bahasa ajah, capeee.....

can u see the title...?
living my own dreams,
what if i have no dreams at all
or if the dreams fails and too vague to be real ???


masalahnya , i dont really feel like having one of them rite now,
atau jangan jangan aku punya cuman gak sadar..

yang jelas hari ini lagi sedihhhh
kerjaan teteup banyak, n temen temen tetep menyenangkan, tapi sepertinya kurang istirahat

n im loosing a good friend rite now, hikhik
sedih banget, di masa masa gini, gak bisa ketawa ketiwi sama this good friend ... rasanya aneh ajah

paling ngga, this is used to be my dreams,
maksudnya apa yang aku jalanin sekarang actually was what i dreamt about,
gosh i am living my own dreams

ampe ga sadar mana mimpi mana realita
terutama kalo kita menciptakan mimpi kita jadi realita

that is what happen to me
good things when i create a good one
tapi susah...
aku orangnya sumtimes mellow n gloomy
so,.
sometimes bad things happen

at least aku jadi binun mau ngomong apah

i had a sight for loosing this good fren
gak sengaja ( :((((

n now suddenly come into reality
okey, kecuali ama my dear good fren yang sekarang berubah sikap hikhik...

whatz wrong with yooouuuuu
got to tell me rite away ( sad mode : on )

pengen baikan lagi hik
dasar !
orang yang aneh.....

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AFFECTION ^_^ fall in... fall out ???????

>> Tuesday 19 June 2007

what do you think of friendship ??
:) tell me tell me

well.... i guess i dont know.


i have a wonderful feeling today.
big relieve kind of feeling

n i dont know why. :) mee just happyy happy
smiling smiling ooopss... without any reason hehe

i'm the kind of creature that cannot live without any friends :)

i cannot make my family as friend off course
for some reasons :) n i like to keep it for myself. hihi no offense i dun wanna talk bout it.

dont be intimidated, i dont hate my family, i luv them, GOd know that n i am not running away from them.

:) they just dont show me affection like what you always thought of.

affectionate for them means.. affection when you live in batavia aroung 1800 or early 1900 .( how did a family goes at that time :) )

not a modern ones. so i guess i need more :))
something that can make me feel comfort.

i broke my heart lately ( not because i fall in love... ) because some dissapointment of a friend, i guess i expect too much.


i thought i made friend with very trustable person, laughable, lovable and firm. and so i believe.
when i thought a friend could lean on one and another and so i do...

but somehow, something is still missing n my heart keep remind me that this friend perhaps not the right best buddy for me. :)

the faith only come from one side. not both , and i just realize that. but lack of faith could end up in worser fate of friendship.

when the fact came that my "i assume as good buddy friend " dont trust me, i began to be so so dissapointed. and terribly sad.

my good friend doesnt trust me,
and even worse, perhaps thought some different kind about me while i though that mate not suppouse to , ( since best buddy know their mate better than others)

the part that rejected my call became the million times of hurricane came and go.
and those twisters swept all the words which i called : FAITH . no faith stays longer in my head when it comes to that name.

perhaps you should leave when you start to diggin your own graveyard.
:)

well i dont wanna push my luck anyway.
i got too many good soul already which i called them friend
:) this time a real time friend.

^_^ friend who cares
friend who remembers
friend that are honest
friend that shares
really friends that stays in my heart n put the same pawprints of me in their heart

:) i believe i still can be happy.
loosing ones means i'll got so much more
:D

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