* about my writing *

SEMUA TULISAN DI SITUS INI ADALAH HAK CIPTA THE UNTOLD PENGAMBILAN NASKAH BAIK SEBAGIAN MAUPUN KESELURUHAN HARUS DENGAN IJIN PENGARANG. ^_^ pizzz youw

my own love verses

>> Tuesday 30 September 2008

When I said we met because of God's plan
I never expect you to understand

Cause i need no words in this world to say how i feel
and I dont need you to believe every feeling that i have

I cant handed the world to you
I cant give you my life nor even half of it
I cant give you all my time in the world

I cant lie that you make me smile everytime I'm down
I cant deny the comfort feeling I got when you around
I won't deny that I am happy to found you

Unlike the beauty of couples that compare their spouse with stars and angels
you are none but human with many weakness

Yes , we dont have the perfect beauty of love
We argue a lot and sometimes stop talking each other

But the feeling never ceased
And we are in love more everytime we know time passes by

it may not perfect, but that's all that I need

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Im smiling
Are you smiling too ?

i wonder if people sometimes could spent their little time to smile to a stranger they dont know

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life iz goood

near big holiday under the big bright sun
i type my notes and try to contemplating
o Dear God what is this life all about
wise man says there are three things in life that can make you feel content
1. be thankful for everything
2. expect less
3. enjoy your life
hahaha the last line created by me

my friends said i persist to enjoy life.
another cup of coffee with friends. another hope that neverending
another baby step that never end ( somehow it become a huge step eventually )

but whatever you do , just enjoy your life. look down for awhile and look on a better way to gain your happiness

depend on what kind of happiness you really want
i guess im sleepy.
no wonder i make a lot of statement you can never understand.

i dont know what to write anymore this time
hehehe im uploading my self into a better mood.

working during holiday seems a bit suck for some people
i could have the same thought ... but i choose to have another view to find myself in a bunch of duty when everybody fells asleep and having fun with their holiday

=D i could have some fun too
by enjoying the knowlede i got in my busy time
by enjoying the responsibility and experience that i can't get someday when i'm older

still...
alone in the middle of billion task ( hahaha im exagerrating )
I have some way to enjoy my self

no wonder people call me freaks

always have funny way to enjoy this life

or........... am I ?

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ayat ayat cinta

maaf kalau banyak penggemar ayat ayat cinta disini.
dari buku itu pertama terbit dan habis kebaca sepertinya jadi buku pertama yang masuk kandang
habis gak kebaca dan bakalah dihibahkan ke siapapun yang mau
which is sekarang udah kebuang entah kemana.

nice words. nice senteces tapi males bacanya. intinya aku gak suka. plot nya aku gak tertarik
maybe i just dont like the idea of having more than one wives .. yaaa kalo yang dikawinin janda janda kekurangan
dengan tujuan mau meningkatkan taraf hidup siy gak papah

tapi kalo cewe cakep , lucu yang masiy available dan banyak penggemar
somehow i just dont like the idea

still... pemeran film nya cakep cakep men..... eventhough i dont see the movie
:D im sorry bukannya mau menenggelamkan kreativitas mba mba dan mas mas insan film .

tapi sepertinya aku bukan target yang tepat buat film film penjual mimpi kaya gituuhhhh
and other similar moviesss...

or bookk

:D ga penting.. just want to release my thought

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B 1 s u

Ada masa masa dimana kita semua jadi bisu
diam kata
diam masa
diam renungan

mungkin lelah karena hidup
atau tidak peduli pada kehidupan

bisu tidak dalam berpikir
bisu tidak dalam laku dan jiwa

karena mimpi mimpi itu masih ada
karena pernak pernik kecil di kehidupan kita masih bersuara

dan kehidupan kita puas terekam buat diputar entah kapan
detail
tidak terlewati
buat satu saat nanti kita tengok sejenak

dan menunggu pengadilan panjang setelah fase mati
setelah fase menunggu
setelah fase berlari, menangis, tertawa dan berdoa dalam fana

tapi bisu bukan hanya lekat dan terkunci di bibir dan lidah
barangkali dalam hati masih bisa bicara

bisu hanya diam
tidak ingin berkomentar

bisu hanya diam
perkecualian dalam semua indera yang terus bergerak

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daun terbang karena ditiup angin atau pohon nya ditebang ?????

>> Monday 29 September 2008

^_^

too inspired by
" TRILOGI: DAUN terbang karena ANGIN bertiup atau karena POHON tidak memintanya untuk tinggal "...liat kisah triloginya di .....


kalo ngga keluar klik di
http://ti2n.multiply.com/journal/item/4

( heheeh ngga canggih gimana bikin link nya yakk )

whoosshhh whooosshhh.... i dont really like it
bikin gemes mau bikin jawabannya hehehehehe
abis gimanaaahhh......kayanya pasrah banget tu daun
kayanya cuek banget tu pohon
dan kayanya oportunis banget tu angin

kalo ada hujan , geledek dan temen2 nya ko nda disebutiin


to me.......

Daun terbang
Karena rayap menggigiti tangkai tangkai yang rapuh
Karena ujung ujung yang menguning tidak pernah tampak dari cakrawala
Cuma sebagian dari daun daun lain yang berarak ditiup angin

Salah satu harus hilang
Salah satu harus lepas

Daun terbang
Jika masanya sudah usai
Pernah perhatikan ?

Bukan karena angin
Bukan karena pohon

Sebelum kekeringan
Sebelum mulai meranggas

Terbang saja
Karena Alam adalah bundanya

Tapi ia Cuma daun
Tidak bisa terlalu jauh dari pohonnya
Cuma menunggu angin buat bergeser
Sedikit lebih jauh


Aku lebih memilih tanah

Semua pasti kembali kesini

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( nda nyambung juga ya???? huw biar ah.. namanya juga iseng )

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my Identity

I was born
not to be defeated by destiny

I was born
not to be conquered by faith

I was born
not to be bound with any strings

I was born
to be the master of my own destiny

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L a R A

Kebencian direda dendam
memaki setan tak kunjung padam

ditimbun luka luka tidak keluar
disapih malaikat
bidadari dalam kuluman

kapal perompak
dinodai karak ketulusan
yang terpasung tidak bisa jalan
layar digerogoti karat

dan aku terperangkap
dalam sistem yang membuatku mati

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selamat pagi

>> Friday 26 September 2008

hidup...
aku hidup....
di tengah aroma seruni

percikan mataharimu
biar semua bisa lihat...
desah embun di ujung ujung batu daunan
merapat
berpegangan menghindari tanah tanah coklat

turun turun...
di kaki kaki telanjang
di udara basah pagi

jangan lihat kebawah
atasku ada udara menari nari
kupu kupu tergelincir di dahan dahan kecil

senyum...senyum...
malam biar pergi entah kemana
ini pagi sudah hangat sampai ke tulang

dan aku dengar kau tertawa...
jangan tengok daunan melenguh
berisik dipotongi capung entah dimana
berebut masa
berebut tarian


ah derai derai mentari pagi
silau silau menguning
menempa rajutan baju hangat si laba laba
yang minggir di pelepah daun

bergayut seolah lemah di kusen kusen jendela

mendepak resah rinai hujan liar
dia duduk dan merajut sepagian

dan aku hidup...
aku masih disini.....................

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where were you 5 years ago ????

have your life change a lot or just the same as 5 years ago ???

i wonder if i can ask myself have my life change from 5 years ago ??
yeup yeup :) you can say so

it does it does it does change already hahahahahah
even a lot of change i have made in my life for the last 5 years

i got everything that i wish right now. some dreams that i've got now have completely reached :)

well... not completely but perhaps almost huhuhuwww =p

small dream, but really big for me, specially for my self, for all the battles that rage in my soul
i conquered it finally. ... well.. maybe not all.. but almost wahahahahahaha

You won't believe it. If I tell you my story you might just laugh and thinkGosh !!! that is not a big deal at all. For many of you, it may seems too simple and not even made any progress at all,
but off course,

success is something that you measure for your own goals.depend on your target. if you achieve it, then you can say your dream has come true.

i always dreamt to have a wonderful best friend. those who really cares, understand and encourage me to be myself.those people that i have never had. those who can hear the song in your heart, and sing it back to you when you have forgottenthe words. and I thank GOD i found them. :) they love me, they care and take me as whatever i am.

ok ok ok it's a simple dream.. among of my many other dreams ^_^

I always dreamt to have my own freedom. To be myself. when noone told me what to do, what to wear,how should i behave, what i must do and so on and so on, and now ... i have it actually :) and im glad to live to be myself rite now

and for the rest of my dream ??? I'll get there somehow... niy baru mulay taking little tiny baby step dikitt...dikittt....hope i can make it ntar ntar

(o0 )........... ko ngantuk yakks.....maw sahur lagiy nanggunggg .. maw bobo

( nguap.... dan nguap lagi... menguap lagi.... lalu kelaparan...)

<>

meanwhile "............................."

met malem jakarta, gudh nite to JUDH, ow ow ka jimmiku yang paling sayang ma adeknya hoho,met malem Juks bach, kensky, met malem my dear mighty DALE, met malem penghuni kosanku huehuehe, tjikieh ranie dan semuwanyah...
gudh nite you all... yang gak bisa disebutin satu satu ( kaya abis menang grammy ^_^ )
good nite to everybody.... eh lupa =p nite nite Duffy... like u said."u're always be a blessed child among all "


----------------------------------------------------------------- ralat "mungkin harusnya aku bilang - gudh morning - ----------------------------------------------------


ps: kelinci !!!! aku lupa bilang.. kau harus bangun buat sahuurrrr.......!!!! jangan reject telponnyaaa !!

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only way to you friend

>> Thursday 25 September 2008

the only one remain from your shadow
is yourself

the only one remain from your soul
is none but your dream

the only way you can linger
is by learning

the only way of learning
is know how to comprehend....

the only glance i remember from my life
is your warm friendship....

the only thing come in my mind is ....
i can never loose you guys

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mAT1

aku mati.........

diam tanpa asa tanpa suara

cuma jiwa melayang layang hening

tinggal di mimpi hidup di mimpi



dan suatu saat aku bangun dari jiwaku

tinggal badan dan tulang

tinggal dosa dan debu



tanpa nyawa

tanpa nyawa

entah dari kapan aku begini...

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pleAsE explAin !!!

these words comes
when lips are sealed
and heart of mine bouncing

these words comes
when glitters of world
and broken dreams swept away

these word comes
from out of nowhere,
not a script written but just flow
faster than my brain.

when you blink
when you breathe
when you touch

i've never seek for your beauty
but it came by themself

and when the world try to seize me
only with you i dare and cope them in the eye

if im senseles and disturb by the wonderful feeling
please tell me why you make my world so alive.

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secret thought *

i dare every guts of mine
veiled a hollow in my world
i dare not gaze upon your eyes
i'll be freezed in spaces
and a loosing days...

what would it takes to get me there
when I feel you
like autumn spring falling scented....
like meadow's fragrant hidden in creeks...

what would i do to standing still
avoid the glittering shudder in my feet
hiding all roses glow in my cheek

half of the world is on your hand
i wish i could show you all
and reach the star everytime you made me smile

then you'll see me shinning around the glow
catching sunrise in your charm
find me the warm i've never seek


if only you can see me without a shelf
you saw me weaken everytime you're near
cause all of my nerve just go out lease

I knit slipped words i need to missed
loose all stances i prone to act
i nearly bend the skies
i nearly travel through space and time


please hold on to me still
and let me loose half inside of me

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Did God send you my message??

>> Wednesday 24 September 2008

Did God told you that I miss you ?

Because I had just left my heart for you at His place

to be taken by you...


Did God told you that I love you ?

Although i need no word in this world to show it

He feels it shudder in my eyes



Did God said that I care about you?

though our lips are sealed and the world go blind

My pray and hope are kept just for you

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desperately cries

>> Tuesday 23 September 2008

why heart of mine sank
dropped like dew on corner

why does the soul gone
caught by the hollow caller

your lips iced not murmured
and i need to hear words when it opens

the words only i long to hear
the word enough to make me bounce and alive

but the air remain chill
as my bone start to glimps
and my mind start to roam

nor in my dreams or while i awake

why life of mine falls
and detached only by you

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Kita

kau adalah jantungku
satu jalan membuat nafasku

kau dimana?
kemari temani aku
duduk disini sebentar
biar aku menyanyi lupakan kehidupan

dan dirinya
atau kau nyanyikan satu lirik buat aku sendiri

dan tatapan hidupku lekat menuju arah yang salah
perlahan namun pasti

aku lengah di helaan neraka bersaput kedamaian
itu semua palsu
atau aku terlalu buta buat melihat

terlalu jelas
semuanya salah ada disini
dijerat rencana sendiri

dijebak hidup sendiri

aku tidak mau lepas
aku tidak cukup rela
tunjukkan padaku
tunjukkan padaku

nyanyikan sebentar buat aku disini
bernyanyilah hingga malam lelap dibuai fajar

kalau esok tinggalkan aku
biar kita jalan bagai orang asing berdua

satu
satu
tanpa kenal satu dan lainnya

bila benar aku titip salam buat kematian
katakan aku bergabung besok pagi

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duffy ku dan senja

senja dekat malam gelap
beranjak pergi pelan pelan

dan dari sisi kudengar batin berbisik
ragu
lengah
letih

langit hilang ditelan embun
kecil kecil berjatuhan berbaris rapih

rekatkan bulan dibalik kelabu gelap
seperti satin yang berarak dihela angin hujan

dari kerak jantungku ia berbisik lirih
habis suara
habis kata kata

cuman menunggu dalam diam
menepis heningmu yang tak beralasan

hilang begitu saja
...............................
secepat detikan waktu yang tak berhenti berlari

aku menunggu pagi datang menjelang
dan matahariku sudah hilang
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